Insomnia

I decided to start my blog back up from scratch. Not because I don't like the old entries in it, but because I have no backup of them from before I deleted them. I guess I'm starting this time mainly because I'm bored.

I guess I should start with a bit about myself. Nothing to big, as I'd hate to have nothing to write about later, but enough to get me to sleep. I guess that will give me a nice transition. I'm an insomniac. I have trouble sleeping. Not trouble like you might have as an ordinary citizen though, more like you hear about in movies and read about in TIME.

That's the reason I started this blog back up if you want the truth. Not to save the world or help consumers, but to help me rest my mind and clear my thoughts or to at least give me something to do while I'm not sleeping.

The best way I've heard to describe what I feel came to me recently in the movie Fight Club. I'm sure many of you are aware that the main character has insomnia. Here is how he describes it "With insomnia, nothing is real. Everything is far away. Everything is a copy of a copy of a copy." This is how I feel, articulated better that i could have ever put it. "When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep and you're never really awake."

That may not make sense to most of you because you don't have insomnia. I'm not sure if I can explain it to you either, as I have never been able to before, but just so you know, to a person with Insomnia, it makes a lot of sense.

I guess the next logical thing to mention is the fact that I consider myself a gamer. I currently own a Wii, DSlite, and Xbox 360. I have no intentions of buying any new gaming hardware in the near future. As of right now there is no other console announced or on the market currently that I have interest in paying money for. I could do with and HDTV though.

Of course I also have a PC and I'm getting a new Macbook within a few days. I don't use the PC for gaming much though, except for a few rounds of CounterStrike: Source or HalfLife 2 now and again. I've never much gotten into MMO's, but I think I just haven't tried the right one yet. I am a big fan of Warcraft, but until I have more money, WOW isn't really an option. I'm pretty excited about my Mac, as it will be the first Mac I have ever owned. It's not for gaming though of course I could put Windows on it later if I felt like it. No, it is for the main reason I use any computer.

That of course would be internet browsing. Some would call me a news junkie, others, more artistic than I, a slave to the media. I prefer to look at myself as more of a news connoisseur. But I suppose news junkie would fit just as well. I have almost an obsession with news. I find myself devouring every scrap of news I can come by. I read digg religiously and frequent a few blogs. Most of the news I follow revolves around Video Games, but I quite often find myself running out of things to read about them, so i move on to Technology, Politics, and other such subjects.

For all my reading though I am no great scholar. I would like to say I am smarter than most, but I find that arrogant and try not to, though often times i can't help it. Of course I try to keep people I consider intelligent around me. My girlfriend, my closest friends, all quite bright in my book. In fact I would say ignorance and plain stupidity are what scare me more than anything. But there I go being arrogant again. That's teenagers for you.

Of course that would be considered an arrogant blanket statement too, so I always seem to lead myself into these traps of what I consider wrong. Oh well though, I suppose my ethics and morals aren't exactly normal. But I try my best to be fair and to judge everyone equally.

Even as I type I feel I am beginning to get to preachy, so I think I'll call it a day. It is 7:10 AM by my computers clock, and I have a doctor's appointment at 1, so I suppose I should try to get some sleep anyway. I probably sound delusional at this point anyway. Peace Out.

-Pojo Baon